I figured out on Sunday that being around the people from HOM can be pretty fun. They give lots of hugs which is really nice. I would like to get to know the people better, but not sure I can be really close with them. We may be too different.
I talked to my pimp until like 5am and then I didn't go to sleep until around 6:20am. It was a really good talk though and totally worth staying up for. My pimp then woke me up at 2pm with a text cause he just can't get enough of me. ;p
Ryan and Robert are both extremely funny guys.
Ryan is 16 today! Happy Birthday Pimp! ;p Lots of luck and double happiness to you(that is my asian thing, ok?).
I went bowling last Saturday with fencers from my club and ASU and never posted pics, so I figured I mind as well post them. I was taking pictures like crazy. Bowling was so early(well early for me), but a lot of fun. Mainly because of the awesome team of myself, Adrienne, Ray, and Jon. Ok, so we weren't the best bowlers, but we were a supportive team and had a lot of fun! Ray and Jon were crazy Asians. I was not stalking Ray...honestly. Adrienne, I hope you don't mind that I am posting these.
Today was pretty good. Got gelato with Beth from Gelato64 on Dobson and Warner. They have a ton of flavors. It is crazy. They had one that was chocolate with chili peppers and the guy tried to convince me to try it, but I said maybe another time.
Met some new people today who seem very nice. One girl I met said I was beautiful, which I thought was very sweet but kind of weird and surprising.
Dennis is awesome for taking me to fencing, even though we got a little lost, we had a fun talk.
Directing at fencing was fun.
Bowling pictures will be coming later, but these pics are still fun.
This week has been really good and also not so good. My mood keeps going up and down so much. Yes, I know I am a girl and we tend to do that anyways.
Cuddling with Matt and Robert was fun on Tuesday night, they are both extremely comfortable. ;) I seriously could have fallen asleep.
Wednesday was kind of crazy and I was pretty tired the whole day. I finally watched Sky High(Japanese movie) and it was pretty interesting and weird.
I should really be sleeping right now since I have to get up at 8:30am to go hang out with Beth and Jessica. We are going to try the new Gelato place that is near Lee Lee and Boba Tea House. Pretty excited about that and hoping I will not be super tired.
As I look at my black nails I feel kind of goth.
People keep leaving before I can ask them things. I can't figure out why I can't understand someone. I try, but maybe they don't want to let me in. And as it gets later I said more stupid things to people. My mind seems to be going crazy with thinking about different things. I probably just need to let some of them go. I hate how things can be so good and then so bad. And I feel like I am just bitching and being a needy girl. As if I am being all demanding like give me some damn attention and tell me what I want to hear.
I feel very emo right now... Thus I am listening to emo music. So what if emo isn't one of the bands genres. They have emo lyrics and they were the first band I thought of. I feel like in the past year I have been more outgoing, which is how I really am, but it had kind of disappeared and turned into being shy and quiet. People may still think I am quiet but sometimes I don't feel the need to say certain things even if I am thinking them. I feel like I am missing a lot of things, but also have a lot. Still I get jealous easily of what people have. Certain people I still want to get to know better. Don't I deserve what I want? Maybe I expect too much. Sometimes I think the more people see who I really am the more they are likely to not like it. I guess I fear losing the people I want to know better. I notice they are people who I see as being similar to me. Maybe I am not really as sweet as people say and seem to think. I could probably stand to be a bit more easy going and not take things so hard. I guess it is time to try harder. What is true happiness?
Get back in contact with some old pretty boys. Take evening classes in manjuu. Admit my true feelings to mushi_san. Start a kyo fund. Drink four glasses of fashion every day. Spend more time with my japanese clothes.
I hope it means old as in pretty boys I knew a long time ago, not old as in age wise.
Things have been pretty crazy and fun the past couple weeks. From fencing, to shopping, watching movies, staying up very late, and not exercising as much as I would have liked to(still lost weight though or maybe muscle lol).
Christmas was pretty good. Slept in and watched a movie while hanging out with relatives.
Tuesday was tons of fun and quite entertaining. I went shopping with Robert and Beth. Robert had a rather gay(not meaning happy and the reason for my yaoi-ish userpic) day. lol Oh, shiny nail, how I want shiny nails and how Robert only has one super shiny one. ;p We need to visit Robbie, partner(haha)!
I got my new cherry(red) LG Chocolate phone on Wednesday. I really like my phone and it is totally sexy. If you want my number let me know.
I am thinking fencing day on January 2nd(Tuesday). Who is in?
Yay for Chinese music.
That is all I can think of for now since I need to go to bed.
Christmas boutique went pretty well. Met some interesting people.. to say the least. And Paula visited! Paula is awesome and tons of fun.
Today I went to ASU and hung out with Cynthia while waiting for Matt to finish his final. We went all around ASU. Definitely some interesting things to see. I liked the bridge and Hayden library and the area around it a lot. Later I hung out with Matt. We went to Boba Tea House(I love that place so much), got some Middle Eastern food, hung out at his apartment with his roommate Joey while waiting for Kishani and the others to decide where they wanted to go, and then we went bowling. Bowling was pretty fun once I got the hang of it(thanks to Matt showing me some tips and me figuring out how to actually hold the bowling ball correctly), but I really sucked at first. Matt's friends are all very nice and fun. It is nice to be around and see people who are so accepting of others. Matt is also really nice, very chivalrous, and had a bit of "fun" i'm sure(let's see if you know what I mean by that, haha.)
Is this enough eyeliner and eyeshadow? Pick a day to be Goth. ;)
Junior Olympic quals were at the Mesa club today. I fenced in Junior and qualified, plus I got 1st. I did so crappy in pools, but good in direct elimination where it counts. Sam also qualified for Cadet.
On Friday I went to the Tempe festival of the arts. I saw a lot of really nice glass and wallhanging type things. Wish I could have gotten some, but they were all so expensive. I also got an idea for a painting that I want to do. I think I may have seen Aya possibly with Kumiko, but I didn't get a really good look and then I couldn't find them. I guess I will have to ask them if they went when they come to fencing.
I have been trying to make jewelry lately for the Christmas boutique, but I cannot think of a lot of different things to try to make and I am running out of time. Sometimes I don't think I am being very creative, other times I think I am being overly creative.
Christmas boutique will be in Mesa at the church Word of Grace this week on the following days and times: Thursday 12pm-8pm, Friday 10am-8pm, and Saturday 9am-2pm. You guys should come visit me since I am sure I will get very bored. We will be selling awesome glass and jewelry. All handmade! I won't be at the boutique on Thursday from 4:30ish to 8pm and Friday 3:30ish to until about 6 or 6:30pm, so be sure to come when I will be there.
Happy Birthday Jessica! You looked so pretty today.
I stayed up until 6am and didn't get up until 2pm. But today was a lot of fun. I finished making a card for Jessica, and then got all dressed up and did my hair. We went to Buca di Beppo for Jessica's birthday. The food was pretty good and I got to see some people that I haven't seen for a long time like Joan, Jon, Marie, and Matt(of course). After that we went to Matt's house for cake, opening presents, and just to hang out. I got to meet some of Matt's friends; Aya, Kumiko, and Joey. They were all so nice. And Connie and Kishani were also very nice. They love taking pictures. I hope to see them again some time.
I may have left something out, but I have to get up early so I must go to bed.
Wow, it has been almost a month since I last updated my journal. The computers were messed up so I couldn't get on for a while. And I've been pretty busy with fencing.
Friday was great. After teaching at fencing, I hurried and got ready to go to Dobson with Beth and Marion to see Jesse in the marching band at the football game. First high school football game I've ever been to. I was surprised how fun and interesting it was, and I noticed that I observe people a lot. I'm not really into football(don't hate me people who like football), but I enjoyed it. And Dobson won, so that was good. Poor Jesse didn't seem very happy.
We went to the Ngai's house after the game to eat dinner since we didn't have time before. Marion was so nice and had gotten us food from some noodle place that I can't remember the name of, but the food was good. I got to see people that I hadn't seen for several months. and a bunch of people I didn't know. Some older lady tapped me and then I think she realized that I wasn't whoever she was looking for and just said bye and left. She may have thought I was Beth at first or something, because I am pretty sure I didn't know the person. I talked to Robert for a long time. He is pretty interesting and funny. He reminds me of myself in some ways. Crazy foreigner. I told him he needs to try out fencing with Matt. ;p
I am totally loving my new hair color, and people seem to like it. I will post pics as soon at I upload and resize them. Keep an eye on my journal if you want to see the new pics. You better want to see them, because I spent over an hour taking them.
Yesterday was lots of fun. I got to hang out with Beth, Jessica, and Misha. First we met at Boba Tea House. I made Beth get boba to try for the first time and convinced Jessica that she had to try the mini boba, since she doesn't like boba very much. Mini boba is awesome! Poor Misha didn't get boba or jelly in her drink, cause she said she got confused when she was ordering and thought they just put them in your drink. I will have to go to Boba Tea House with here again to help her out.
Matt, we should go to Boba Tea House and then wherever you want to go.
Second place we went was a little store near Boba Tea House called Morning Glory, I think. It's a Korean store that sells cute Sanrio and Korean stuff.
Don't worry, Matt, I won't make you go to that store.
Third place we went was the Chandler mall. Misha only shopped with us like half an hour cause she had to go work at Buckle, so that was kind of sad. We went to a shoe store and I saw someone from fencing. That was cool, because I have never run into anyone from fencing just like randomly. I tried to go shopping crazy, because I had three gift cards that I could use at Gap, but I only bought one skirt and it was on a really good sale. The only other thing I bought was a shirt from American Eagle. I really wanted to buy some jeans, but I couldn't find any that fit right. Buckle had some awesome jeans, but they were pretty expensive.
I've been obsessed with watching Hana Yori Dango(flowers over boys) on youtube since Sunday. It it such a good Japanese drama. You should all try watching it! I am staying up way later then I should just so I can watch the end.
10 things I want for my birthday(not completely in order) 1. D.N. Angel volume 11(manga) 2. Dir en Grey - Six Ugly(CD) 3. Cowboy Bebop DVDs(any except the first one) 4. S-factor by TIGI shampoo or conditioner 5. Spoil Me from the Bead Head line by TIGI(hair product) 6. Money for CD's and clothes 7. Gift cards for the following places: American Eagle, Ulta, Bath & Body Works 8. Nural - The Weight Of The World(CD) 9. Dir en Grey - Ryojoku no Ame (First Press Limited Edition) from CDJapan 10. A boyfriend/cute guy if you can find one for me ;p or Japanese punk/rock/street clothes.
Posted especially for Matt, but it's for anyone who really cares.
I would have asked for black nail polish since everyone knows how gothy I am, but I just got a small bottle of it yesterday. ;p
Anyways, don't ask me what I think about something and then get all defensive about it or act like I don't really know what I'm talking about. The truth may hurt, but I can only tell people what they want to hear so long.
Hide your bloodveined eyes Swallow your lonliness The voices pressures in Your words that you ask for me The joy of being needed I bite my nails just a little - Dir en Grey(Spilled Milk)
I try to help people the best I can. It can be hard when it seems they rely on you to make them happy.
People take time to be calm and don't think so much about bad things that could happen. It will take control of you.
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